Tuesday, July 29, 2008

the "new me"


i'm feeling pretty uninspired lately....musically speaking. yeah. some of you newer readers may not even know....i'm a musician! :-) that picture above with the guitar....that's me. actually, i recorded and released my very first record in march of 2007. it was a pretty cool process. writing, recording, producing, promoting...for the longest time i thought that record labels where so unnecessary. a big fat waste. but now i get why it takes so many people to promote and bring a record into the market. it's really tough work. especially when you're doing it by yourself....back to my point. it seems like i'm at a stalemate with myself creatively. i have ideas every now and again....but nothing seems to come all the way to completion. i even sat on the porch last weekend with my guitar and my notebook....had a full idea....music, theme....i wrote one line....and after about 30 minutes of nothing, i went back in the house. defeated. several of my friends have tried to encourage me to keep on going. that this is my "calling". that i've got "talent". but honestly...i'm not sure that i'm ever going to make music that's going to really impact people again. if i'm going to be totally honest with you guys, i'm not sure if i ever made an impact. this isn't a cry for compliments. please don't leave a bunch of "you're so great" comments. the only reason i'm even writing this down is because i don't want to post another shallow entry. actually, now that i'm re-reading this (i always do), i'm realizing that this is a pretty boring post and that i'd be tuned out by know if i was reading it....so maybe i'll end here. here's a list of things that HAVE inspired me so far this year. sorry for the self-serving, pity party post.

lifehouse
surfing
my porch
homegrown photography
blogging
my beard

10 comments:

Natalie said...

J,
everyone has gifts and EVERYONE gets into "creatively-challenged-slumps." So know that your not alone and it too shall pass... Press through...

Lauren said...

I have to tell you, I was so bummed when you said you thought this was a boring post and started bringing it to a close. I thought this was one of your best posts ever. You allowed yourself to be vulnerable, to share what is on your heart and you expressed it well. For everything there is a season. Search your heart, put it at God's feet, one way or another you'll end up where you're supposed to be.

Cheryl said...

Thanks for not posting another 'shallow post' - - this one I get!!!!

I'm reading a book by John Eldredge called Desire (He also wrote Wild at Heart & helped with Captivating) It is a wonderful reminder that God didn't call us to live a "nice" life, but a passionate, amazing life... it's been a real encouragement to me to get up, dust my self off and live my dreams... (sounds like a blogger I know...living dreams....)

Hang in there...You are a great musician . . . and even more important, a true servant of God, the inspiration will come back, I'm sure of it!

drick said...

cheer up eeyore. maybe we should go watch reuben morgan again.

Lauren said...

Reuben morgan makes everything better!

Lauren said...

Dude, I totally just realized the difference between Reuben Morgan and John Reuben. Seriously, I always laugh inside when I think of John Reuben.

Chelle said...

You know how I feel about this.

Pastor's Perspective said...

J - If its any consolation. You light up my life and give me hope to carry on, lighting up my day and filling my life with song. No J, it can't be wrong when frankly it feels so right. J, just have to lay all my cards on the table - You light up my life.

Pastor's Perspective said...

DISCLAIMER: J if my previous post inspires you lyrically to write a song, all written approval and liscencing must be approved by written consent by Debbie Boone Inc. LTD

Natalie said...

Pastor Steve!
You are on a ROLL with these LYRIC comments!!! I mean, "Disco Inferno..." Now "You Light Up My Life...!" Can't wait to see what kind of lyrics are coming next?

Oh, ice cream makes everything better!