Tuesday, July 29, 2008
the "new me"
i'm feeling pretty uninspired lately....musically speaking. yeah. some of you newer readers may not even know....i'm a musician! :-) that picture above with the guitar....that's me. actually, i recorded and released my very first record in march of 2007. it was a pretty cool process. writing, recording, producing, promoting...for the longest time i thought that record labels where so unnecessary. a big fat waste. but now i get why it takes so many people to promote and bring a record into the market. it's really tough work. especially when you're doing it by yourself....back to my point. it seems like i'm at a stalemate with myself creatively. i have ideas every now and again....but nothing seems to come all the way to completion. i even sat on the porch last weekend with my guitar and my notebook....had a full idea....music, theme....i wrote one line....and after about 30 minutes of nothing, i went back in the house. defeated. several of my friends have tried to encourage me to keep on going. that this is my "calling". that i've got "talent". but honestly...i'm not sure that i'm ever going to make music that's going to really impact people again. if i'm going to be totally honest with you guys, i'm not sure if i ever made an impact. this isn't a cry for compliments. please don't leave a bunch of "you're so great" comments. the only reason i'm even writing this down is because i don't want to post another shallow entry. actually, now that i'm re-reading this (i always do), i'm realizing that this is a pretty boring post and that i'd be tuned out by know if i was reading it....so maybe i'll end here. here's a list of things that HAVE inspired me so far this year. sorry for the self-serving, pity party post.