Friday, December 5, 2008

building a house that's not a home

i thought about it before. started a couple of times, then stopped. sometimes you have to just begin, so you've got a starting point that you can remodel from. that's how i work. i've got to put something together...anything...just so i can get rolling. otherwise, i'll sit, and stair, and wait....and never begin.

there's pressure to make a masterpiece. i want it to be perfect. to be everything you've ever wanted. for you to love it. for you to never ever need anything else. but, maybe that's a little unrealistic.

maybe, this will just be the beginning. maybe i won't do to much. ride it out and then move on to something a little better. maybe this will just be a stepping stone.

but beyond the plans and design and dream, what i really want is to create a home. something that says who you are. not just a structure. a defining symbol of you....your likes and dislikes. your special nuance. your flavor. the aroma of you. i want to know it the minute i walk through the front door.

but it's not always that simple. actually...it never is.

5 comments:

Cheryl said...

It's never easy... but I think it's pretty simple... you build a home just like you build a house... one 'brick' at a time, and I think you and Sharon are off to a great start!!

Monika said...

Don't you already have all that?

Natalie said...

I'm lost... It is too late at night for me to get into this... I would say that when I walk into your home I can see things about you... Does that work?

Anonymous said...

Sometime I wish I could be in your head to understand the why's...

Carrie Hasson said...

it's all perspective...sadly, when you move a lot you always remember where you were more fondly than when you were there...really trying hard to work on this...