Thursday, August 28, 2008

a new leaf

change is good....ehhh? it is. as a child, i used to move the furniture around in my room every 6 months or so. granted, there was only a few configurations that i could come up with....but i worked those. i just loved the feeling when i woke up in the morning and my room was all turned around. i always wished there was some way that my parents could do this while i slept...so i wouldn't even have any recollection of the switch.

is that weird? anybody with me?

i feel a change in the wind in my life. i think it's good to constantly re-evaluate yourself. what you're doing. why you're doing it. what you'd rather be doing. when i look at myself, i see a lot of really good things. but i think the change that's coming, is my motivation for doing them. i can look at myself and see selfish motivation for some very good stuff that i do on a regular basis. i want to smile because i'm happy, not just because i want to project a certain persona. i want to laugh because i find joy in the moment, not just wanting to protect the feelings of my companion. i want to serve....because i love...not just out of guilt or obligation. i want to love because i actually love....not just for what i receive in response.

this is tough...but i'd encourage you to take a look at yourself. re-evaluate. change. grow.

less of me....

10 comments:

vsossaman said...

Good thoughts Jeramy! More of him, will definately cause you to accomplish your goals. He certainly did all of those things with no payback! What an example to follow. I'm proud of you.

Pastor's Perspective said...

Love this J! Love your transparency. Change for the sake of just changing is semi-cool but not all that thrilling; however, having the right motivation to change is key. I'm sensing this exciting shifting in you and several others. The fact that its all happening simultaneously leads me to believe that something breathtaking is just around the bend. Praying for you to courageously continue to dream, transform, delete, add and modify. The best is yet to come!

Natalie said...

YES! I am so with you! I used to change my room around ALL the time! Your not wierd. If you are then we both are weird!
Great post! I am proud of you putting yourself out there all for "less of me." Thanks for encouraging me today!

bronwenhealyhope said...

jeramy, i am sitting here reading this feeling like some kind of proud mama......wow. so blessed by the AUTHENTICITY AND TRANSPARENCY with which you wrote and i read these words.

NEVER BE THE SAME AGAIN, may justice and praise become you TRUE embrace....as you seek Him and love Him from the inside out...

Chelle said...

I'm with you friend! I'm excited for what God is doing in your life! Keep pressing in.

Michelle said...

This is a good reminder. I know change is necessary, vital even, but so often I forget this and would prefer to stay in my ruts of comfort.

Gena said...

As always, great stuff Jeramy!

james said...
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james said...

It is always tough to check our motivation. When we serve sometimes we expect at the very least a pat on the back. It is a good reminder that we need to be real in our motivation and not just seeking personal gain of any kind.

on a lighter note, I think you are weird for changing your room so much, and Natalie admitting you have a problem is half the battle.

Robin said...

Thanks for the comment on our lice situation....yes it is a pain. We had a ton of advice on how to treat them...ultimatley, olive oil was the cure...washed them right out and they have yet to be back!

Love your blog by the way. It will be added to my list of daily reading.