change is good....ehhh? it is. as a child, i used to move the furniture around in my room every 6 months or so. granted, there was only a few configurations that i could come up with....but i worked those. i just loved the feeling when i woke up in the morning and my room was all turned around. i always wished there was some way that my parents could do this while i slept...so i wouldn't even have any recollection of the switch.
is that weird? anybody with me?
i feel a change in the wind in my life. i think it's good to constantly re-evaluate yourself. what you're doing. why you're doing it. what you'd rather be doing. when i look at myself, i see a lot of really good things. but i think the change that's coming, is my motivation for doing them. i can look at myself and see selfish motivation for some very good stuff that i do on a regular basis. i want to smile because i'm happy, not just because i want to project a certain persona. i want to laugh because i find joy in the moment, not just wanting to protect the feelings of my companion. i want to serve....because i love...not just out of guilt or obligation. i want to love because i actually love....not just for what i receive in response.
this is tough...but i'd encourage you to take a look at yourself. re-evaluate. change. grow.
less of me....