back in the saddle

well, i'm back. i know i've had a couple of small linguistic appetizers for you in the last week or so, but i figured i should officially say, 'hello again' to all 7 of my blog readers. it's nice to see you again....it's been awhile. it's been a crazy few months to say the least. i've been working on a post that (hopefully) recaps the experience that my family has journeyed through since june, but i'm not ready to finish it. but, it's coming...

i'm feeling the joy of life getting back to normal...or at least as normal as possible. i enjoy the regular routine of work, home, hang, sleep and repeat. all of which has been incredibly disjointed lately. the simple things make me smile. coffee in the morning. bbq as the sun goes down with the sounds of my kids playing in the background. my beautiful wife sitting with me on the front porch. all of those things make me happy...but today, the later is my focus.

the trials and lessons of late have really given me a new appreciation for sharon. that sounds wrong. i love sharon. in the words of my friend john, "i'm not talking about a roman candle, hot pink, hollywood kind of love...i'm talking a I'VE GOT YOUR BACK kind of love" but, in the last few months, we've both been in spots that we couldn't have ever seen coming or decided ahead of time how we'd react...or known how the other would respond. and it was in the center of those storms where her reaction was simply out of her pre-existing character.

sharon is so strong, so compassionate, so tender. she thinks about people and things in a way that i forget to...every single time. she handles pressure...not "i don't know which bill to pay first" kind of pressure...but mind numbing, heart breaking pressure with grace and dignity. now...because i know her, i bet she will read this and be embarrassed or just shrug these traits off as me being all mushy, but they are true none the less. and as if all of that wasn't enough...the quality that she displays that i love just as much as all of those others is her need to be loved and cared for by me. i can say without hesitation that at any given moment, sharon is just waiting...ready for me to love her. now, i'm not the easiest person to live with...or love. i know this about myself...and you don't need to agree with me. but there has never once been a time in our relationship where if my hand reached for hers in the dark...even without looking...that hers wasn't there...ready to hold mine. I LOVE THAT!!! and i love you babe. we are soul mates...in the truest sense. here's to forever.

less of me...