Thursday, December 11, 2008

the best part

i put up with all that i don't like, all that i'd rather not do...for hours, days, weeks...only for the hope of what i love. it keeps me going. keeps me motivated. keeps me thinking, dreaming....scheming? i don't know how i'd feel if i didn't have to wait. maybe the anticipation adds to the impact of the moment. it doesn't define me though....but with all the thought and time that goes into wouldn't know it. it's a bummer when it doesn't work out. that can make me grouchy or distant or snappy. if i could just figure out how to enjoy the moment without thinking about the next one. that would be the best.